me or you?

the sad part is
that the more and more i think about this
the more it damn well hurts

but the more i think about it
i realise that i have to stand by my decision
you always told me that i was stubborn
and right now i'm going to exercise that to its full extent

and today i battle, my head or my heart
if my heart won out
i'd be back in your arms in a second
but my head knows that this wouldn't work
that me loving you isn't enough
i need you to give the same back

so this time round
unlike all the others
i'm choosing my head
because when it comes down
to you or me
i'll always come first
and in the end
i have to make sure
that i look after myself

my gut churns as i consider this
but you messed up
its your fault you lost me
and i forgive and forgive
i always forgave
i fought for us
but it was a two way battle
and i can't fight by myself

until you learn this
and i hope you do
there's nothing i can say
i can't always wait for you...